I… ache. My stomach aches. My chest aches. My back aches. My overly-clenched jaw aches. It’s the bad kind of ache (but a good one, too). And I cherish every bit of the pain I’m in. Wow. What an unforgettable way to spend a Sunday.
Right off the bat, I want to tell you that this was a wonderfully torturous, amazing, devastating 5-star read for me. Hooked me from the start and didn’t let me go. It’s dark (subject-wise and emotionally). But if you’re good with that, and if you don’t want to know any more (I highly recommend going into this blind), leave this review and read this book! You know me, I don’t “spoiler” anything, but this one is best experienced in complete and utter obliviousness to what’s to come.
I almost don’t know if I should sit and contemplate this to come up with an eloquent way of telling you how intense and unique and awesome of a story this is, or if I should just let it all out in one fell emotional “word-purge” swoop. <— I think I’m going that route since I really don’t want to tell you much about the actual story itself. I went in blind, and was continuously blindsided every step of the way (and loved every moment of it. Especially the moments that I hated it). I have a definite love/hate relationship with this book (from start to finish), but I wouldn’t change a thing.
Maryse’s Book Blog: Whoa! When I first started reading about this book, I didn’t realize the heroine was kidnapped!! I’ve already had THREE *jolts* for Tarryn Fisher’s MUD VEIN and I haven’t even started it yet. The synopsis (she’s been kidnapped!!), the teaser (he thinks she’s his “soul-piece”), and the sort of… warning letter from Tarryn Fisher to us, her readers. Plus, I’ve seen “crying” picture from early readers posted… I’m scared, and yep —> SO titillated.
Trina: Reading now… WHOA!
Kelsey: I’m reading now Maryse!!
Emma: Downloaded it as soon as I woke up. At 32% with a racing heart and a lump forming in my throat already.
Maryse’s Book Blog: I’m already HOOKED!!!
Sadie: “We all have someone who reminds us of what love stings like.” This book!
Danielle: Just finished it and am trying to wrap my head around what I have just read. Devastating and beautifully written
Sarah: 36% in & loving it!!!
Maryse’s Book Blog: I’m 49% in. Sooooo goooood! She’s an amazing writer. Very unique story and I’m on the edge of my seat with this, emotionally.
Sadie: Finished and loved it. I can’t stop thinking about it. It gave my brain and emotions a workout – the best type of book.
Catherine: Is it a cliffie Sadie?
Sadie: No cliffhanger…
Jessica: I finished it. Yep. No words. Need a few days to digest this one. I don’t even know if I liked it.
Claudia: I am reading and it’s freaking me out!!
Kathy: I am speechless!! This book left me an emotional mess!!
Lisa: I am and loving every second
Sarah: Just finished it …. Amazing 5+ stars
Maryse’s Book Blog: I’m having heart palpitations…
Sadie: Yes it made me feel…intensely
Janet: Wow, so unexpected and amazing. What a talent.
Serena: Have you finished, Maryse Black? I am in love with Tarryn Fisher even more after reading Mud Vein! *sigh*
Heck yeah, Serena I finished, and Tarryn absolutely rocks my reading world. And Jessica… I get you. I too, had to pace and breathe for an hour before beginning my review. And even still, I wonder if I’m ready to write it?
“It’s your darkness that pulls me in. Your mud vein. But sometimes having a mud vein will kill you.”
So what’s it about?
Senna is suffering under the weight of her own emotional detachment issues. Her inability to connect. To relate. To see the good in life. To want. To hope. To love. These things are not what Senna is made of. I think she wants it… but she doesn’t trust it. Or trust herself. Or anyone.
This character… who she is and what she is made of, and what made her that way… it’s just… massive. Somber. Distressing.
I discovered that private things were mostly sour. They sat spoiling in the corners of your heart for so long that by the time you acknowledged them you were dealing with something rancid.
↑↑↑ Whoa. THAT. ↑↑↑
Things happen. I’m not even going to tell you what, because the way the story unfolds is AMAZING. Perfectly in order, even in it’s “out of order” replay. Pieces are revealed every step of the way… and yet this book will keep you guessing to the very end. And that’s why I don’t want to say anything more. Other than, read the book’s dark blurb, and don’t read anything else until you’re done.
Maryse’s Book Blog: 80% in… Whoa. I… Wow. This has been an unputtdownable, anxiety-ridden read. I still have no clue.
Kathy: That’s exactly how I felt. I still had no clue!
Lori: I’m about 1/4 in and obsessed
Hang: You’re killing me Maryse!
Elizabeth: Just bought it. Can’t wait to start!
Kelsey: Yes I’m just errrrrrrr
Jennifer: Ohhh me too!!! Damn that Tarryn!! Not what I was expecting!!! & the end
Allaina: Just finished Mud Vein, just wow, seriously got under my skin, loved it
Maryse’s Book Blog: OMG I am finished. Whoa. Seriously. Speechless. Amazing.
If you’re up for something crazy, intense, and disturbingly (and beautifully) honest… a story that could go *any* way, this one is for you! It sure was for me!
I devoured it in one sitting, and suffered from frequent bouts of stress, heart palpitations, and hot flashes. I cringed. I huffed with exasperation. I occasionally eye rolled through some of her more melodramatic moments. I understood. I loved.
Maryse’s Book Blog: “He kissed me with who he was, the sum of his life – and it was all encompassing. I wonder what I kissed him with since I was only broken parts.” <— Whoa. Holy moly! That’s pure sad beautiful poetry. I am LOVING Mud Vein… *my heart*
Emma: I just finished and…OMG. Can’t wait to share.
I felt the need to soothe. To protect. And to smack! I was a mess.
I suffered under the weight of the oppressive dark cloud that constantly hung over her. That perpetual dark cloud that followed her every moment. Her every thought. Her every feeling (or lack thereof). HEAVY.
“It hurts me when you cry.” His voice is so earnest, so open. I can’t speak like this. Everything I say sounds sterile and robotic.
I try to look away, but he holds my face so that I can’t move. I don’t like being this close to him. He starts seeping into my pores. It tingles.
“I’m crying, but I don’t feel anything,” I assure him.
He pulls his lips into a tight line and nods.
“Yes, I know. That’s what hurts me the most.”
GAH!!! MY HEART!!!!!
And things were moving right along from page one. I was hooked. But things really got rolling, when the psychological thriller aspect kicked in. Thriller? Sometimes I’d almost liken it to horror. Or more like horrific. No… no gore. No guts. No paranormal monsters. Not that kind of horror. But the suffocating, trapped, panic-inducing kind. Persistent darkness with no end in sight (but plenty of hope from the reader’s perspective). That is… if you didn’t become “one” with Senna. Which I frequently did. Claustrophobic, from being inside my own head. HER head. Resulting in my own personal feelings of hopelessness. Not just in respect to the “kidnapping” (and OMG that got terrifying all on it’s own), but in respect to the emotional turmoil. Agonizing.
And yet… could there be light at the end of the tunnel? What would it take. How far did she have to break, to reach it? Moments of absolute relief. Moments of absolute devastation. And I’m good with that.
Oh great. Now my throat aches.
Yep. The lump in my throat is back. But again, feeling like this… aching, needing to pace, and not knowing what to say other than READ THIS!!! <— That’s why I read. I read to feel it all (the good, the bad, the ugly). And this one is a perfect mix of the three.
A love story. A horror story. An absolutely moving story.
Hold on to your hats my friends. Keep your hands and feet inside the ride at all times. There is NO getting off this ride until it’s done (that is… for those of you that like this kind of read as much as I do).
“Why are you here?”
“Because you are.”
P.S. This is one of those books that requires a Mud Vein Spoiler Chat “support” thread, and it’s up and waiting for us to let loose right here. If you’ve read the book and need to let it out, come on in!
P.P.S. Be careful reading the comments below… just in case of spoiler-y reactions.
P.P.P.S. Thank you to the author for sending me a review copy. I will read anything you write.