Book Review – Push by Claire Wallis

by Maryse on May 7, 2014 · 34 comments

in My Book Reviews


WHOA. OMG… I’m just… whoa. Now that was an exhilarating read indeed. Excuse me, while I pick my jaw up off the floor. I’m just sitting here. Stunned. Dying for the next one. DYING!!!! Yes… yessssssssss, it ends with a MAJOR cliffhanger but just like a fellow reader said, I don’t regret reading it not one bit. If I hadn’t, I would have deprived myself of all of this exciting “crazy”, this buildup, this anticipation, this THRILL. And heck, I read especially to feel like this!

Now first, I want to thank Melissa, Skye, and Pam for recommending this one to me. You guys know EXACTLY what I like. SPOT ON, my friends!!!!!

Melissa: Maryse, I just finished a book that you would love!! It’s called PUSH by Claire Wallis. Holy moly was it good! Right up our alley with a bad boy, but with a HUGE dark twist that will shock you! Its not your typical romance but it is a love story. i think it is very dark, but you might not think so. I want to tell you every little part about it, but that would give away the plot. I don’t know if the author has written any other books because I couldn’t find any other ones, so this might be her first. It’s on sale on amazon for like $2.50. You need to read this one ASAP! I would love to know what you think!

Skye: Hey Maryse, I just wanted to let you know about a book in case you hadn’t seen it yet. It’s called Push by Claire Willis. I don’t know the author, but I started reading it and damn it is sooooo dark. And well written. Thought you might want to take a peek. The prologues are pretty intense so I think if it’s gonna hook you, it will do so in the sample :)

Pam: Just finished Push….wow… Just wow… So good and I didn’t even mind the cliffhanger. Gah!!!! So good.

Oh wow! There was just something so raw and real about these recommendations. I one-clicked it immediately, and went in, completely blind. Just on the trust of these recommendations alone. I didn’t even read the blurb.

So if you want to trust me implicitly, and you like to read stories dealing in “dark” subject matters, and you like wondering about your own sanity for loving characters that are apparently er…. not, well… you get the picture. I think this one’s for YOU!

And now don’t read further below. I won’t give anything away or spoil anything more than the blurb lets on (yes, I just read it now), but since I LOVED going into this blind, I think you might, too. All I knew was that the end was gonna blow me away, and I was good with that info.

So for those of you that want to go in blind (it’s SO fun!!!) stop reading this review, here! I am going to say that I’m giving this 4.5 to 5 stars. I’m gonna work that out below, now, so no more peeking!!! 

Now for those of you that want to know more… what’s it about?

Twenty-something year old Emma moves into an apartment, starts her new career and has a new lease on life, leaving behind her abusive family and past. She quickly meets her new neighbor, David, who is also the maintenance guy for the building she lives in. Although only there to repair a few cupboards, David takes it upon himself to renovate the entire kitchen, and to her dismay, installing himself comfortably into her daily life. Oh she resists at first (maybe even a bit too aggressively at times), but they soon find a comfortable “friendship”. It’s cute. And then it becomes sooooo much more.

But David’s a mystery. He’s got seemingly obnoxious friends that he doesn’t want around her, extra curricular activities that had me guessing all sorts of things, and well… a dark, and I mean DARK past that is revealed to us, piece by crazy piece.

For the first time in my life, I was enjoying a taste of contentment. Happiness. But then, as it always does, the unrelenting ache swirled back into me, striking me, biting into my brain like a gnawing hunger. A craving for a single, perfect moment in which I have absolute control. I can’t ignore it. Even with her. Even though I really do love her back.

And I’m gonna end that, there. The rest is for you to unravel. And what a crazy web it is.

But what I loved about this is that you get it all. That sweet budding friendship that continuously evolves into so much more, the extreme protectiveness (much needed, and a sweet relief),

…his chin rests on top of my head. My face sinks into his neck, and I start to cry. Relief swirls through me.

“I know all about a$$holes like him, Emma,” he murmurs. And I openly sob against his body. I feel sad for David. Sad that he has to know this about me. Sad about what he heard. Sad that he knows how damaged I am, I do not want his pity.

… the mysterious “activities”, the friends and the funny moments (even in it’s intensity, it made me laugh out loud, at times). Like her drunk scene:

“Shhhhh,” I say, with so much drunken silliness that I want to punch myself, “it’s all good, baby. I got your back. Because you, David Calgaro, are one fine-ass man.” I pat him irreverently on the chest and he shakes his head at my sloppy drunkenness. My neck feels floppy, and I roll it backwards and start to laugh.

“What’s so funny?” he says with a grin.

“Me. I’m funny,” I say, poking myself in the chest with my own index finger.

*giggle* This is TOTALLY something I would have done. I mean… they felt SO REAL, I couldn’t help but love ‘em!

The romantic intensity, the intense possessiveness… and the “backstory”. Ohhhhhhhhh the backstory. Just. You. Wait!

Even though details were handed to us on a silver platter, even though there appeared to be “no questioning” things… I still found myself questioning… everything. Wondering all sorts of “am I imaging things?” and “Why do I love it/him/them so much when er… it is so obviously, certifiably insane?”

Oh don’t worry, I didn’t give away too much, ’cause it starts off with a crazy bang. I mean, you come into this KNOWING what you’re in for… oh yeah. NO. You’re dead-set, mind made up, right from the start.

But the author is just sooooo good at this. She’d slap me in the face with reality… and then have me questioning it. I’d question my reading reality. I’d question their reality. I’d superimpose ideas into it, thinking, maybe I misunderstood something. Guessing all sorts of scenarios. And I’m not saying whether I was right or wrong in the end. Just telling you… that my mind was playing games with me… and my heart was getting in on the action!.

******* Okay and for those of you that continued reading this review, but that haven’t read the book yet… I’m hinting that maybe you want to stop reading the review now? No spoilers below, but maybe too much info for those that like to experience it all for themselves? ‘Cause I’m gonna get a bit deeper into my experience of it… *******

I’d start feeling cuddly. Snuggly. Swoonie. Heart palpitate-y. I’d forget. Yep.

But then she’d remind me again. I’d go from swoooooooning and floating in my cozy love bubble, to “GAH!!!!!!!! WHAT!?? Ohhhhhhhhh riiiiiiiight!!!! Now I remember!!!” I’d shake my head, wondering what was the matter with me for forgetting… and then I’d eventually forget again… and so on. ;)

And as I just tried to explain this story to my husband, trying to er… make myself sound sane in the process of describing the circumstances and my connection to the story, my… affection for the characters, he pretty much just looked at me like I’d lost my marbles.

Husband: “No. rolleyes It’s not good to root for the psychos, Maryse.” <—sidenote: Noooooooooooo? neutral *whoops*. My bad.

Me: “Ahhhhh, you don’t get it. I guess you just gotta read it, to feel it.”


But he’s right. And I agree. It’s just that… ah. Nevermind. I’ll let you decide for yourselves. ;)

He did mention that it would make a great movie. If not a Blockbuster, than at least, one of those crazier “Lifetime” movies (and he likes Lifetime, so that’s a compliment). LOL!

But this is why I love fiction. Books let us dig in deeper. Let us experience everything. Give us reasons. Give us certain perspectives. Now of course, in “real-life”, there’d be no question as to my perception of… ahhhhhhhhh you know the “I-love-dark-reads” drill. ;) I always find myself making this same excuse when I enjoy the dark-reads too much. LOL! But come on, it’s all in good fictional crazy fun, right? ;)

Yeah… I think. I think I’m gonna 4.5 this. Or maybe a “reserved” 5-star, and only ’cause it is a bit much, at times (certain decisions, certain things, situations and circumstances that *realistically* could be picked apart and are a bit over the top), but then again, they’re only human and most certainly not perfect. Oh gosh no. LOL!!!! So not perfect, and at times SO bad… you’ll see. Yeah. Craziness.

Yep. So crazy that I am questioning my own sanity for having this much affection for a er… umm… let’s just call a spade a spade shall we? Or in this instance… a psycho.

Maryse’s Book Blog: I am at 96% of “Push” (I linked it in the first comment), and I’m savoring every last line (and I’m on the edge of my seat). It’s been a perfect mix of *OMG! WHOA! CRAZY!* and *Awwwww OMG LOVE*. Totally TOTALLY different from our usual “dark reads”. In fact… “David” has a sort of “Matt from Night Owl” feel to him. I’d say the book as a whole, even if it’s completely different, storyline wise, has that “Night Owl” feel to it. It’s the only way I can describe my personal connection to it. My experience of it. SO VERY GOOD and now I’m off to experience the grand finale. P.S. I hear it’s crazy, and even now, I have no idea where it’s going…

Melissa: There are so many emotions when reading PUSH! You love him, then I’m like no!! Then I love him again!

Lisa: I devoured this book. It is crazy brilliance


Val:  You had me at Night Owl.

Maryse’s Book Blog: Oh. Whoa. <— side note: I had just finished the book

Kathy: Does it have a cliffy?

Nancy: I read someone wanting to throw their Kindle after reading this. I love my Kindle. Do I really want to read this?

Kathy : Nancy, those are my favorite kind!

Maryse’s Book Blog: Oh yes my friends, it has a cliffy. Major… and yet. I do not regret reading this one at all. What an experience!

Rebecka: Finished Push this AM! Love em hate em. It’s just shy of a 4 for me. Just a few parts that had me saying C’mon Really?? Then I remember they are a bit warped to begin with and cut em some slack and just go with their madness. A cliff (er um bridge) hanger) Definitley! So looking forward to the next book.. I just hafta know– ya know?

Angie: You had me at Night Owl too. I just one clicked it.

Judy: just finished. Good Lord almighty…

Stella: Maryse! I just finished PUSH!!! WHAAAAAT?!?!? OMG!!! I couldn’t put it down. :O So Intense! A Roller coaster of emotions. Definitely not what I was expecting but I Loved it!!

Toski: I’m 56%. My mind is reeling. Ooooommmmgee David is so Matt Maryse !! You are spot on

Maryse’s Book Blog: YES!!! YAY!!!! Somebody that has read both of ‘em and can see it, too. Just wait… he gets even WAY MORE “Matty-feel” in the second half…

Nikole: Amazing book…however when I read the last page I yelled “noooooo it can’t end like this”

*tee hee!!!* Yep. It ended like that. ;)

This is a fun MUST READ “dark read” my friends!!!! Not too dark (at least not to me)… just dark enough for our reading thrill!

4.5 to 5 stars <— Lemme think about it for a few. One thing’s for sure, as SOON as I was done reading, I immediately felt the need to review it. I was EXCITED to review it. And other than the steamy scenes (plenty of those, and it would seem I find myself skimming sex scenes more and more these days), but for the rest of the story? I didn’t skim a thing. As much as I was dying to know the outcome, it was just so good that I didn’t want it to end. I ate up every last line.

P.S. It appears we have a desperate urge to chat about this crazy read and “spoil” our guts out. ;) So here is the chat I created in the “spoiler forum” —>

P.P.S. *eeeeeep*!!! Guess what!?? I will be interviewing the author soon, and she has offered to answer some our questions in regards to “Push”. So, if you have questions (I know I do!), now’s your chance. :) If your questions are non-spoilery, you can post them here in the comments. If they are spoilery, you can email them to me here, OR you can post your questions in the chat spoiler forum I just put up:

YAY!! I love inside “scoops” :D

October 19th 2014: BREAKING NEWS UPDATE!!! “Pull (Part Two of Push)” (the sequel to Push, over there to the left, just went up for pre-order on Amazon!) —>

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Mara May 7, 2014 at 12:47 PM

I loved this too! Emma was awesome. I loved her anger issues! Ha that sounds weird but she was so genuine and her childhood made it so justified. And my feelings for David are mixed but STRONG. Ha do I love him or hate him? I’m not sure but he definitely made me feel.

I loved the part where Emma finds out Matt and David were both talking about her without realizing it. Haaaaaaaa

When’s the next one released?

Donna L May 7, 2014 at 1:17 PM

I just started reading Push! OMG – I already can tell this one is going to make me cray-cray lol I already emailed the author for a tentative release date for Book 2. Whew!

Maryse May 7, 2014 at 1:43 PM

I can’t wait to know when!!!!

Maryse May 7, 2014 at 1:43 PM

Mara, I’m right there with you when it comes to David. GAH!!! What to think… what. to. think?

Maryse May 7, 2014 at 1:44 PM

Okay okay, I know the “logical” way to think… you know? ;) But er… you know.

Britt May 7, 2014 at 3:32 PM

Ha! I found myself skimming the sex scenes too!! They were written really well but because I sort ve knew where this story was going (based on the prologue) I couldn’t ever relax enough to enjoy 0_o reading them? BUT I’ve never read a book… where I felt like “come on finish already” to see how it was going to end and at the same time not wanting their story to end! I truely enjoy reading about them. So unique!! And dare I say believable…idk. But it was goood!

Sara May 7, 2014 at 4:41 PM

Is this dark? :)

Lise May 7, 2014 at 4:48 PM

GAH.. is right! I’m at 43% and this is right up my reading alley… weeee ;-)

Britt May 7, 2014 at 5:12 PM

@sara ..depends what type of dark u mean…sexually dark? Nahh!! …creepy dark….sure… ;)

Jean May 7, 2014 at 7:40 PM

Just downloaded it….. going in blind with my trust in Maryse!

Maryse May 7, 2014 at 7:55 PM

YAY!!! You guys!! Feel free to give me your reactions as you go… (spoiler free of course, if you decide to comment here) but I’m dying to re-live this one with y’all! :P

Rebecka May 8, 2014 at 2:29 AM

Maryse, Your statement right here was my initial hesitation to also rate higher.

because it is a bit much, at times (certain decisions, certain things, situations and circumstances that *realistically* could be picked apart and are a bit over the top), but then again, they’re only human and most certainly not perfect.

But now a couple days later I’m STILL feeling Push n thinking so what if some parts seem a bit far fetched….isn’t this one reason we read to be taken to the top away from reality! Bring on the next one! We’re ready!!!

Donna L May 8, 2014 at 7:15 AM

Ok – I finished Push! I’m sooooo….I don’t know – I think I need therapy. :-o Love Emma! David – I’m fuming but feel drawn to him at the same time. I asked Claire Wallis when Book #2 will be released. She said she can’t say but updates will appear on FB ad Twitter. Oh my – I need to read something fluffy and sweet or have some retail therapy! $$$ LOL

Jean May 8, 2014 at 9:41 AM

Maryse, quick question not related to the book. I sent you an email asking how to change my email address with you. Can you please let me know how to change it? Thanks!

Maryse May 8, 2014 at 9:55 AM

Hi Jean!

Er…. good question! But… I don’t know. LOL!! I’ll ask my husband, but I know my mom has set up multiple accounts here depending on what email address she’s using, so I think you can just make a new account with the new email address?

At least, until my husband comes back with a better answer. ;)


Maryse May 8, 2014 at 9:56 AM

Donna for fluffy & sweet I think I’m going “Nowhere But Here”. :) It sounds great, and people say they are laughing through it, and the dialogue is amazing. So… I think that’s next for me.

Jean May 8, 2014 at 9:58 AM

I don’t mind setting up a new account, but I have to stop getting them at the current email address you have….so let me know if there is someway to do that…haha! Thanks!

Patty May 8, 2014 at 10:18 AM

I’m at 60% and still undecided how I feel about this book. Yes, it’s well written and an intriguing story and I like David and Emma together. I guess it’s the other parts of the story that are preventing me from living in the moment with them! Still, I’m anxious to finish this and I know I’ll wan to read the next book

emma May 8, 2014 at 11:21 AM

What to do about David ? He fits right into Emma’s life. They are made for each other. They have both faced a shittly up bringing. So is it wrong that I feel for him ? I just don’t know what to think or feel !!!!!!!!

Maryse May 8, 2014 at 11:26 AM

And it doesn’t help that your name is Emma, does it? ;)

Maryse May 8, 2014 at 11:26 AM

Patty… definitely keep reading. I know exactly how you feel!

Maryse May 8, 2014 at 1:00 PM

*eeeeeep*!!! Guess what!??

I will be interviewing the author and she has offered to answer some our questions in regards to “Push”.

So, if you have questions (I know I do!), now’s your chance. :) If your questions are non-spoilery, you can post them here in the comments. If they are spoilery, you can email them to me via the “contact” link in the menu at the top, OR you can post your questions in the chat spoiler forum I just put up:

YAY!! I love inside “scoops” :D

Donna L May 8, 2014 at 1:16 PM

When are you interviewing the author?

Maryse May 8, 2014 at 1:33 PM

A date hasn’t been set yet (as I’m still compiling a list of questions), but hopefully next week. :)

Maryse May 8, 2014 at 1:43 PM

Ahhhh okay Jean. I gotcha!

Lemme see what I can do (my husband is on it). :) Will get back to you soon.

Patty May 8, 2014 at 4:51 PM

Ok, I finished the book. I don’t know if I would classify it as a romance or even a dark romance! I’ve read plenty of both and just don’t get that feel from it. David’s issues and past prevent me from falling for him, though I can understand why Emma loves him because she doesn’t know what we know! Don’t get me wrong, it was a great book and I would highly recommend it, but I guess I have to read the next book to get the complete feel for this story. Please ask the author when it’s coming out!!!

Lisa M May 8, 2014 at 8:51 PM

OMG!!! I just finished it!! Never have I read a book that I was so tempted to read the last few pages! The anxiety I felt over was it really going to happen to Emma!!! Wow what a cliff hanger. Dying to know what happens next!! We all want to know what happens next?????

Michelle May 9, 2014 at 7:44 AM

just finished! OMG! WTF! When is book 2 coming out?

Melissa May 11, 2014 at 3:53 PM

I’m 40% in so far. It’s a long read. I feel like something big ig gonna happen soon (I hope) …..

Signe May 14, 2014 at 6:53 PM

I’m at 58%, eeeep!. I have this uber anxious thing going on over here.

Ali May 31, 2014 at 9:47 PM

I’m waffling whether to start it or not… Gah!!!! I made a promise to myself I wouldn’t start a new series until all the books are out. I’m so over cliff hangers and waiting for the “next book”. Is it just me???? I hate missing out on the action though, it sounds awesome! And you’ve never led me astray :)

Whitney June 21, 2014 at 12:08 PM

Ok…OMG I just finished this book!!! I have to know what happens next!!! When will book 2 be released???

Mindy October 19, 2014 at 5:35 PM

I cannot wait for this follow up!!! What a crazy ending in Push! Pull cannot come out soon enough! This was a no-brainer one click for me!

Tracy November 2, 2014 at 10:09 AM

I am 26% in on this and i don’t even know how to react to what I am reading. Shocked, confused, intrigued and completely pulled into this story.

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