I loved this book so much that it seems like I’ve highlighted the whole thing! And this isn’t a sweet and cuddly kind of love, either. This book’s “feel” borders on a mix of two emotionally devastating, tumultuous books from our reading past (How to Kill A Rockstar + Thoughtless – just the feel, not the story itself). Books that we loved, but only because they had us reeling, crying, and delightfully angrified ;). Sighing in love and then gasping in shock as certain truths came to light (stuff we knew that they didn’t. Stuff they knew that WE didn’t).
In “real life”, I wouldn’t want to be a character in this book (my heart couldn’t survive it), but when it comes to my reading entertainment, this is totally my sort of thing. But how to put it into words? How can I convey exactly what the characters went through, what I went through, while reading this, while keeping it spoiler free? My head is a jumbled mess of emotions, and scenes. In fact I’ve been pacing all day, trying to put my smorgasbord of thoughts in a clean, clear cut and precise row. But why bother? There is nothing, clean and clear cut about this book, because human emotions can be messy, messy things. And there is plenty of that in this.
I have gotten myself into a situation where I am going to lose him all over again. The first time was bad enough.
I emotionally exploded all over my Facebook page (while trying to keep it spoiler free), and also in my spoiler forum (of course I dedicated a specific discussion to this book), and even to my friend Tina. I fell asleep last night after finishing the book with some sort of comfort level in place (despite the roller-coaster I had been on). I was secure in my perception of what I read, I handled my emotions well. Oh sure, I couldn’t put it down until I was done at 3am. Oh sure, I’ve been living and reliving the scenes in my dreams, and all day. Oh sure I was a book zombie, but I pulled myself together, ’cause I was so excited to tell the world about this titillating new book, and to go over a few details that still had me perplexed, feeling-wise.
As I discussed it with those who’ve read it, things started coming to light. I started realizing things that I didn’t quite grasp with my sleep-deprived mind at 3am. And I started crying! CRYING!! At work of all things! Not just once, either. Over and over again. Work a little… cry a little. Discuss the book a little, handle a phone call, cry a little more. Clear up some paperwork, remember a scene, cross reference it to another scene… cry again.
Maryse’s Book Blog: Rebecca… Great recommendation!! I stayed up until 3am finishing it and dreamt about it all night. It messed with my head and I loved every minute of it! The lies, deceit and selfishness but all for love. SO SO very human though. And I must say. I’m angry at something in there. So very very angry, I *gasped*. And now I need to discuss it in the talk forum… grrrrrr!!! I need to get this out before I review it tonight. Join me?
Nancy: Now I know what I am reading next, but I’ve been such a mess since finishing STOLEN that I haven’t been able to read anything. This sounds like it might be able to get over that mess.
Maryse’s Book Blog: Nancy. You’re just gonna walk into another mess, I’m telling you. But it was delicious fun!!! Oh it’s not YA, but it’s more of a “fade to black” in those kinds of scenes (and their aren’t many), so not steamy per se. But the drama aspect and the intense emotion, romantic angst and game playing. That makes up for it.
Gitte: Have put it on my list…will I cry though? I need to be prepared cause I’ve been caught out so many times lately!!
Maryse’s Book Blog: I didn’t cry. I was more angry, but I tend to get angry over crying, so I dunno. There were probably some cry-worthy moments. OH YES!! Oh wait. YES. I didn’t cry because I was furious, but yes. There was a cry-worthy moment for sure. Shook me up. As I mentioned in the discussion forum, this one had a feel (feel only, not story, but feel) of: “How to Kill a Rock Star” mixed with a bit of “Thoughtless” and sure. Why not. A little bit of that “Desperate Housewives” drama too (although …
Kari: Im looking forward to reading this one
Gitte: OMG I cried my way through HTKAR!!! And Thoughtless I LOVED..and Nancy..Stolen had me in a mess for days after…Hahaha I sound crazy for reading books like these that make me cry but I LOVE them cause they make me feel…Right I am definitely reading The Opportunist next then ;0)
Trisha: Sounds so good! I really liked how to kill a rock star even though I got really mad and upset a few times. Loved loved Thoughtless. Haven’t read Stolen yet….to tell you the truth I’m a little scared to go there LOL.
Jenny: I’ve got to read this! You sold me on the HTKARS and Thoughtless comparisons and you definitely have me intrigued!
Melissa: i dont think im in the mood for any mental abuse at the moment lol
Maryse’s Book Blog: Yep. Something was pointed out to me in my discussion. And NOW there were tears. At work of all things! Grrrr!
Jenny : Oh no! I just started it. Darn insomnia and I’m hooked and now you say there’s crying….. Oh oh! Oh well, too late to turn back lol. Will let you know how I go x
Rebecca: The Opportunist should have a warning on the cover that you will be completely fixated with it for weeks afterward. It has been 2 weeks for me and I’m still getting over it. Sigh.
Maryse’s Book Blog: Agreed. I’m still at work. Still crying on and off in spurts. Maybe I need to quit listening to the soundtrack for the book the author made. It is TOO close to re-reading the book and keeps setting me off again… The book has affected me more after the fact then during it. *gulp* lump in my throat is back.
Melissa: haha its a good book then if it can do that to you Maryse
Rebecca: Haha, I am listening to it right now too! The Scientist by Coldplay, now I am just going to have to go ahead and reread the whole book. Darn it!
Jenny: The Scientist is on the Playlist?? That’s it! I’m doomed! There will be tears.
Maryse’s Book Blog: Oh yes. Apologize, and OMG the Adele one. Kill me now. Oh and I want to personally thank (being sarcastic here) Rebecca and Lise for popping me right out of my delusional bubble. Couldn’t y’all have just left me there, and giggled amongst yourselves until book #2? Huh? Couldn’t y’all? tee hee!!! *sob* Darn tears won’t quit!
Gitte: Sounds like there’s no hope for me then if this is how you feel Maryse….
Maryse’s Book Blog: No Gitte. You’re doomed. I’ve literally been crying all day… *shakes head* I was fine this morning. Then someone(s) burst my happy pink bubble. MEANIES!
Gitte: Maybe I will be in the same bubble and then I can avoid your forum where it gets burst??!! Or I should go get another batch of man sized tissues…
Maryse’s Book Blog: hehehe… sigh… I still want to believe my perception. LOL! I’m going with that. 😉 Get man-sized tissues anyway. And I promise… it’s totally worth the read, and there are 2 more books coming (and she’s writing BOTH!!! as we speak). It’s okay. My version. 😉 ‘K?
Maggie: sounds good, just downloaded it
Lise: Maryse- whatever makes you feel better. It hurts so good. Can’t wait to see what everyone else thinks, been waiting for two weeks!
Maryse’s Book Blog (Paranormal & Urban Fantasy) It does Lise. I love books like this…
So what’s it about? Love. And how a few of the characters would lie, cheat, manipulate, deceive, hide, and do anything for it. Not for hurtful reasons (mostly). For human, selfish reasons. They love, and they would do anything to keep that love, however they have to manipulate it to continue to be. And sometimes the deception is ugly and just downright awful. And sometimes it’s just sad and desperate yet, so touching. Human reactions. You root for them. You get angry at them. You love them. You hate them.
Circumstances present themselves, first chances, second chances…. third chances? And there’s the right way to handle it and the wrong way. Somehow, someway… these guys always manage to start things right and then mess things up. Big time.
And so starts a series of flashbacks (how it all started… where it all went wrong) and living with them in the “present”. Because you see, one day, a few years after their tumultuous love affair, Caleb bumps into Olivia…
I still love this boy. The realization scares me. I thought I was over it. I thought I could handle something like this; an impromptu run in. I’ve had therapy; I’ve had three years to…
Get over him.
Fester in my guilt.
… and instead of being openly hostile to her, he’s pleasant. Polite. ‘Cause he doesn’t remember her at all. Amnesia, you see. LOL!! Don’t roll your eyes. It could happen!! And all I could think of, was OMG where is this going!!!??
Nothing makes sense. Nothing fits together. Caleb doesn’t know who I am. Caleb doesn’t know who I am! With every step, he takes toward the door I become more desperate. Seomewhere in my head I hear a voice scream, “Stop him!”
Oh and it went there. In every which direction, zigzagging, twists, turns, secrets revealed… even stuff WE the reader didn’t know. A big bad “secret” that was dangled in front of us, hinted at… but. What. Was. It? What DID this?? What was going to happen!? TO them? To us? To her? To him? To that OTHER her!??
Leah Smith. That was the beast’s name. She was as rich as I was poor, as happy as I was miserable, as redheaded as I was dark. He met her at some swanky party about a year after we broke up. Apparently, they hit if off right away, or maybe he hit it right away, I can’t be sure.
Oh yes. It was a delightful mess, and I highly recommend it if you’re in the mood for mind games, heartache, painful revelations, and realizations that if only …
I can never tell him. He will remember eventually and this whole charade will come crashing down around me like a bad game of Jenga. Until then, I have him back and I am going to hold onto that for as long as I can.
Oh right. Never mind. That’s for you to discover.
4.5 stars. Almost 5 stars. I’ll think on it. Oh. And there will be a book #2 (and I believe the author mentioned a #3, also). Just so you know, I am DESPERATE for #2. Just sayin’.
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