Book Review – Where She Went by Gayle Forman

Where She Went (If I Stay)
Warning!! SPOILERS AHEAD for those who haven’t yet read book 1. And while this book does give you enough background as to what exactly led the main character… here, it is still better to get the whole picture, and all of the emotion attached. And that is best done by reading the first book, in this “duet”.

So this book gave me a few things I so desperately needed.

1. A continuation of book #1. The ending was so… wide open. It could have went anywhere, and I prefer when there is a definite resolution. I don’t wanna come up with the “ending” myself. I’m not a fan of “left up to interpretation” endings. What if my conclusion is wrong? I always have that “what if…” worry . *sigh*
2. A more mature story in regards to the characters (as this book occurs three years after the “incident”) – so now everyone involved is pretty much an adult.
3. More of Adam (I adored him in book #1) Adam. The ultra famous rock star. Need I say more? The whirlwind of his stardom, the chaos, the demands, and his ever-broken heart that instead of healing, just continues on it’s downward spiral.

As I “summarized” in my “best of 2011″ list:

“Ohhhh the plight of yet another tortured rock star. And this character had every right to his desperate angry tormented ways. EVERY reason. And as we live out a few days during the pinnacle of his huge rock-stardom, we re-live his agony over his loss of the only thing that mattered to him. Rock stardom was his dream, but it’s not all it’s cracked up to be, living it with a broken heart. Sure, the reason for his destruction is also what helped catapult him to rock stardom, but he just can’t get past it. And this is the book that brings us (and him) face to face with his heartbreaker.”

And that’s the gist of it. I couldn’t have said it any better. Adam’s high school rock star popularity was no fluke, and while his band was generating a “buzz”, it was the turn of events that killed his dream, and his creativity. His absolute adoration and vigilant lookout for the love of his life, her welfare, her happiness, crumbled to dust when she walked out of his life shortly thereafter.

No reason, no excuses… no actual breakup. She just… left. Oh he knew where she was (she made it into Juliard), but her lack of communication, and her eventual complete abandonment of him, did him in. His dream of becoming a rock star was second to his love for her and his dream of their future, together. He knew that there’d be a temporary separation while each furthered their adult careers, but not an actual end to it all. That, he did NOT expect.

I let it wrap around my neck, choking the air right out of me.

But one day, he bled his broken heart into new songs. His creativity was fueled by his torment and anguish. Yes. Anguish. You really REALLY feel his pain. And they became uber-famous. His band was #1. His life became everything he dreamed it would be. A famous beautiful actress on his arm, rich beyond belief, in demand. But he was disenchanted.

How does it feel that the only worthy thing you ever created came from the worst kind of loss.

Still nursing his broken heart, still dealing with the pain, he is now struggling with his intense disgust with the industry leeches that are bleeding him dry.

After the studio, I have a lunch interview with some reporter from Shuffle. Those two events are kind alike the bookends of what my life has become: making the music, which I like, and talking about making the music, which I loathe. But they’re flip sides of the same coin. When Aldus calls a second time I finally kick off the duvet and grab the prescription bottle from the side table. It’s some anti-anxienty thing I’m supposed to take when I’m feeling jittery.

Jittery is how I normally feel. Jittery I’ve gotten used to. But ever since we kicked off out tour with three shows at Madison Square Garden, I’ve been feeling something else. Like I’m about to be sucked into something powerful and painful. Vortexy.

And he’s not doing a good job at it, earning him the “bad-boy” status with his fans and peers, and disrespect of his band mates.

And then one day… despite a very full schedule, he skips out on it all when he realizes that Mia is playing Carnegie Hall. He buys a ticket, goes in to watch, and the buzz of the “famous Adam Wilde” gets back to her. And she comes out and finally faces him.

Back to the reality of the past three years. There are so many things that demand to be said. Where did you go? Do you ever think about me? You’ve ruined me. Are you okay? But of course, I can’t say any of that.

And this book is a 24 hour journey of that meeting. And what a journey it is. I had my heart in my throat the entire time. I was cold. I was angry. I was nervous. I was ADAM. ME!! I felt him, and his anguish, his elation at seeing her again, and his trepidation as to what he was going to discover on this journey.

“So, how are you?”

How am I? Are you for real?

When one of my Facebook friends asked:

Yanira: Is it too sad?

Maryse’s Book Blog: Yanira… No not too sad. Definitely some tragic moments, and certain parts made me sad… But it’s more a series about painful events, choices, growth and change. Yep. That. But of course that can’t happen unless there are life-altering situations that spur on the changes and introspection. For all involved.

I felt good when I was done. Full.

Gitte: ‎”Full”….Spot on Maryse…

Great book! Loved this one, even more than the first.

4.5 stars!

Interested in the series? (or “duet” as the author calls it) —> Gayle Forman – If I Stay Series Reading Order

Book Review – Where She Went by Gayle Forman

Tagged as: 4.5 stars, contemporary romance, rock stars